job match results out on monday: and am officially jobless for next year. crap
a whole combination of causes: 1) applied for a bpt3+ year when i'm not even a proper bpt2. 2) only applied to 2 hospitals. arrogance is a cause of my downfall sometimes.
so now, instead of hastening the whole process, i've slowed it down.
upset that the hospitals don't acknowledge my efforts at work. ah well. disillusioned and disappointed.
going to reassess and regather my plans for the future.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
after 9 months...
after 9 months, i think i'm still in love w him.
he's got a boy's brain. That day, he said, 'can this venesian talk martian for once?' Cracked me up big time.
So far, i've thrown all these weird silly questions at him, and he's not rejected me yet. he's in fact treated them really seriously.
he's been gentle w me. encourages me.
thanks dear.
he's got a boy's brain. That day, he said, 'can this venesian talk martian for once?' Cracked me up big time.
So far, i've thrown all these weird silly questions at him, and he's not rejected me yet. he's in fact treated them really seriously.
he's been gentle w me. encourages me.
thanks dear.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
reflections on relationships
because i like to think about these touchy-feely topics, i think about relationships in general.
so presented Y a few questions, which of course he kindheartedly and openly obliged.
1) does this feel rite to you?
2) why me?
3) why not someone else in between?
maybe it's my insecurities. but i think it's more due to my logical brain trying to work out something that isn't quite logical. i then threw the questions back to myself. and we've both wisely decided to withhold judgement for now.
so presented Y a few questions, which of course he kindheartedly and openly obliged.
1) does this feel rite to you?
2) why me?
3) why not someone else in between?
maybe it's my insecurities. but i think it's more due to my logical brain trying to work out something that isn't quite logical. i then threw the questions back to myself. and we've both wisely decided to withhold judgement for now.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
4 more ED shifts to go
survived my 7 nites. 5 of which were sooooo busy!
grateful to Y for listening to my whinges every nite b4 my shifts started. u made it slightly easier to do the shifts.
grateful to L for sending me to work and buying those chips so that i could take them into work.
grateful to my bosses for not being so inpatient w me.
overall it was all ok... :) had fun in the end...
grateful to Y for listening to my whinges every nite b4 my shifts started. u made it slightly easier to do the shifts.
grateful to L for sending me to work and buying those chips so that i could take them into work.
grateful to my bosses for not being so inpatient w me.
overall it was all ok... :) had fun in the end...
Thursday, June 10, 2010
ED... soon to end
11 more shifts to the end of ED!! (hopefully no more ED for the rest of my life)...
this is the only thought that i can carry to make this any easier for me...
night shifting for 7 of the 11 shifts
this is the only thought that i can carry to make this any easier for me...
night shifting for 7 of the 11 shifts
how to fix a light bulb that i can't reach
maybe the best way to fix a light bulb is to get a ladder, not a tall man. :p
being apart now...
When it gets painful being apart, i turn my focus onto someone else and give them some loving care.
It might mean that i'm getting too attached to this person that it gets painful when we are apart.
it lessens the pain, but doesn't get rid of it completely.
It might mean that i'm getting too attached to this person that it gets painful when we are apart.
it lessens the pain, but doesn't get rid of it completely.
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